For this post, I've thought a lot about how I can't describe what's in my head. And i'm scared that nobody understands even when I try to explain. I'm not your average girl.. I mean it when I care about someone. I can't just sit there and walk away and be happy on my way. When I care, I care end of the story. What brought this on today was a status I made that upset someone I care about. When trying to explain about it I feel like I failed and nothing I was saying was making anything better. I'm worried I just messed everything up even more because I feel like i'm always good at doing that. What I should've said was the someone was about you... and when you get better if you still like me and until then I wanted to focus on myself and my school because I don't care talking to anyone else, even my friends. The only person that I cared to talk to out of the day was you even if for a short amount of time over stupid little conversations that weren't stupid to me at all but others might find stupid.
I guess at the end of the day all I want is for someone to understand that I'm not good at words and I always feel like everything is my fault. And I wanted you to understand but at this point I've bugged you too much today with trying to explain and you don't wanna talk. And im hoping its just for a little and not forever... because you are important and you do mean a lot to me.....
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